afterleafI Was the Girl Who Was Always High
In high school I wasn't just someone who smoked. I was the girl who was always high, a stereotype I leaned into because it was easier than being nobody in particular.
Teachers looked at me a certain way. Classmates had jokes. I had a role in the social ecosystem: funny, chill, not threatening, always down. Weed wasn't just a substance; it was how people knew me.
Quitting weed years later meant more than withdrawal. It meant who am I at a party if I'm not the relaxed one? Who am I in group chat if I'm not the late-night yes? The reputation had hardened into identity, and identity fights back when you try to leave it.
Shedding "always high" isn't about becoming respectable for other people's comfort. It's about admitting the label stopped fitting long before you stopped using.
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Some people from that era won't recognize you without weed. That's okay. You're not performing nostalgia for a version of yourself that needed smoke to feel legible.
You're allowed to grieve the character. You're also allowed to outgrow it without owing anyone the same punchline you used to be.
The girl who was always high wasn't fake. She was partial. There's more of you on the other side, even if the other side feels awkward at first.
Public "stoner girl" identity can follow you for years, quitting weed means grieving a reputation, not just a habit. Who you are without the label takes time to discover.
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